the wrong turn

hey guys it's me.it's been long since i've blogged whoa!! haha.. well lets just say i've fallen for someone again even though i promised myself i wouldn't fall for anyone yet there was this girl oh so! amazing, we have so much in common and relate to each other so easily though we never officially met but i guess if we did we'd be the ultimate mix like chocolate ice cream and marsh mallows-god! i'm talking food again.well at the moment i'm too lazy to describe her and explain the situation cause my friends it's one story you all would really cry for a series of events which include happiness and the after effects (depression) and the songs still ring in my head like a incohorrent soundtrack of hers.

LOVE,love and lOvE.why does that word pop in my head and is spelled by my heart trough it's beats? is it coincidence that she might be the one? why does it rain(literally) when she's not around or when she's mad at me? and why do good things happen too with her presence? my thoughts less complicated at my mind at ease and my heart racing syncing up with my breath.what is this feeling waiting to burst into butterflies? only now i knew that she put an end to the glorious and unforgetable moments that i cherished as if were the only things in the world that i didn't have.she said straightly and without hesitation ,"i'm preventing myself from falling for you because it's too difficult ,".that's when i saw my whole world crash and burn right infront of me, my hopes shattered like shards that can't be joined together again and it ended with a long silence in my head the empty space that used to be filled with her words and her expressions soon became a dream.sure it is one big nightmare that i surely want to wake up from tonight because a day without her seems like forever, every minute that goes by doesn't stop for me anymore.wished that she'd miss me just as i miss her.if there are other women out there that are way superior than her, i'd still pick her because she taught me how patience and trust is one way to show how you love someone and not just that she's the closest i've got to approach.

sorry if my post is quite short but to tell you guys frankly this is summarized so yeah and i'm still depressed for that drug that became addiction has spread through my system and now that it has exhausted my heart is yearning and crying for it crippling all sorts of emotions.i love her and it will always stay this way until death do us part.

42th SABAH AGE-GROUP SWIMMING MEET 2009

Actually the competition was not longer than three days but since my team had to try out the indoor pool so we came a day early to KK which also gave us extra time to rest before the competition kicked off and after it ended so altogether we spent 5 days in KK. My teammates who’ve gone to the previous Sabah meets were right about the pool though as we did a few laps to get our bodies used to the temperature, it was exactly 0 degrees Celsius (just the same as the temperature of iced water to be more specific).

During our stay we had a pretty busy schedule and also had diet to follow for breakfast and lunch (we wouldn’t want to drag our stomachs across the pool wouldn’t we) luckily dinner was exempted. Other than that we had a curfew (we had to sleep before 9pm) and also had to wake up 4 am to get dressed and eat breakfast early to get our food digested before we warm up at the pool. The best thing was that we had our own rooms and most of us were in the same floor so I never got bored at all.

On our first day of the competition ,it was between 5-6am during the crack of dawn when we were on the way to the stadium I saw an astounding view of a chain of mountains surrounded by billows and behind these superb mountains was a crown of mountain if I’m not mistaken it’s Mt. Kinabalu (literally it looked like a crown).As soon as we arrived at the stadium we warmed up, due to the taste of having to try out the pool the day before my body had set the sensation in my mind causing an involuntary action making me take 5 minutes before diving into the intensely cold pool even though I tried force myself to dive in. I didn’t have that much events that day I only had two and both were in the morning session, my events were only 200m breast stroke and 100m freestyle. During the 200m breast stroke it was close fight since everyone was just seconds away from beating each other. I got a little paranoid though; I had a feeling of losing count of the laps (I’m relieved that that never happened). Then a few minutes later trailing behind was the 100m freestyle (it’s tiring that my events that day were crammed), by then I had only enough fuel for 50m and hardly enough for the next 50m so I swam with 50-80% speed but that wasn’t enough to get me pass the KK swimmers .I’m still wondering until now how do these people do it they’re like human sharks, they have infinite stamina specially “The Giant”. This peculiar machine took part in most of the freestyle events (his best stroke) and broke many Malaysian records during the meet. There was this young lady that caught my mind because she broke a record in my favorite stroke (breast stroke), her name was Awang Pan Freda (don’t mistaken her to be Malay by the name cause she isn’t, she’s pure Chinese).

During the afternoon session I spent my time in the hotel and mostly going round the city along with a few friends (those who didn’t have any events in the afternoon) checking out malls. It wasn’t much of a predicament finding the malls there since our hotel was encircled by mini malls (about the size of The Mall excluding the hotel). These mini malls had more to exhibit than The Mall however (no offence but The Mall’s shops are almost similar to each other) and are more congested with people during the week days. The only disadvantage about being in the middle of trading centers was that the air was concentrated with whatever gases you get from cars and cigars, so basically throughout my stay, there wasn’t a time my throat could stop choking from the grimy air that filled my lungs except when we were at the pool (the indoor stadium was kind of isolated from the city). When got we got back I hung out with my brother’s pals in our room until the sky was jam-packed with stars swimming in the sapphire sky. I didn’t buy much not much of a shopping person unlike Mu Hin, who got a head start with a shopping spree when he arrived (he came to KK by plane).Who can blame him, he has cash flowing like water from a fountain. You won’t believe me if I told you he brought Rm3000 cash and a credit card which limits to about B$5000 and I don’t believe it but that’s not enough for him since every night we would go to incongruent places and in every place we go to he always has something to clutch on once we leave for the hotel. That night the whole team except for our Muslim associates ate at a Chinese restaurant, we had profusion of a variety of food that the table was chock-full. After a heavy meal I had a walk round the mall with my buddies including my bro, we stopped by at almost all the video shops. Other than that Felix and I looked up and down the mall hunting for the very thing that would give us extra energy for the next day’s events. Unfortunately we failed to obtain “Gatorade” (the drink of the gods) so had to just bear with what we had. Since it was still early Felix and I didn’t give –up searching for Gatorade, we searched every mini mart nearby including 7/11 but it wasn’t a success so to cool us down from all that walking I bought us slurpees and a box of cards to pass the time with. Slept early that night but I kept waking up because the phone kept ringing at different intervals of my sleep and whenever I picked it up there were just two things that could possibly happen either I’d hear complete silence or just another wrong caller.

On the second day, my brother and I woke up early and I still felt sluggish because of those obnoxious callers. That day I didn’t feel that much energetic as the day before and had a loss of appetite since my taste buds were still in a deep slumber so basically everything I ate had no taste but I managed to force myself anyways. That morning was pretty vague since I didn’t get to see the peak of Mt. Kinabalu. It was a long day since I had the 50m breast stroke in the morning session and the 4x100 freestyle relay in the afternoon session so I spent the whole day there at the stadium but I wasn’t bored at all, I was entertained actually watching other people swim and cheering for those who’re close to breaking the record. Before every event coach gave us his special mix of energy juice to drink, it tasted so sour that my taste buds were about to burst . My first event for that day was 50m breast stroke if I’m not mistaken, I was close to beating the guy in the next lane (I should’ve done the long stroke all the way) if I wasn’t so slow at slamming my hand on the touch pad and also if it wasn’t for that constriction I felt on my legs which kind of restrained me from pushing myself beyond my limit but I persisted the pain and went on. That was every swimmer’s challenge in close combat, the fastest hand to get on the touch pad wins even though the difference was only a fraction of a second and also the muscle constriction which happens rarely but succeeds in slowing you down if you let pain consume you . After the morning session ended we headed back to the hotel as usual and ate lunch had a few minutes to replenish our bodies then we left for the stadium. The whole afternoon session just watched my teammates and cheered for them since my event was the last event of the day. As my final event of the day was about to start I had butterflies in my tummy but fortunately everything went smoothly we weren’t last but we were close to 3^rd. As the day ended I felt relieved that we had one more day to go and finally freedom. That night we went round the biggest mall in east Malaysia (One Borneo Mall), the mall was so vast that even though there would be a lot of people in the same place they would be well spread out so it seems less crowded. The mall even had its own Chinatown and it had Nike shops and Adidas shops at every corner and you believe this the mall’s lavatories for the men had a small screen for each urinary cubicle, the sad thing was it only showed adverts. Then again wasn’t much in the shopping mood but I did get dragged into the arcade by my brother, at least I had something to do there. The Chinatown was so cool; it sold so many things which had traditional designs and some gem stones which had medicinal properties. While we were waiting for Mu Hin to get to the entrance, Bahrin showed Felix and I his weird bloated tummy which was overlapping his abs. We left for the hotel past curfew because Mu Hin ran a bit late due to all the shopping he needed to do. That night I slept an hour and a half past bed time and then again my sleep was bothered by somebody (who cares who he/she is), at least it wasn’t as worse as the night before.

On the last day of the competition, I woke up early again but was more energetic this time and was totally ready to get the day done and over with. That morning was just the same as the morning before and we followed the same routine. I had three events which were the 100m breast stroke, the 50m freestyle and the 4x100 IM relay. That day was no ordinary day; I was no longer affected by the intensely cold pool. My mind was set on one thing “winning” or at least not getting last. The 100m breast stroke went well because I didn’t feel any constriction in my legs therefore I was able to overtake two of my competitors. In between our events we played cards which helped in keeping us relaxed and motivated our minds. The 50m freestyle was one of my personal favourites since I broke my old time which was 39 seconds by 5 seconds (34 seconds), “The Giant” was 8 seconds faster though but it’s okay. After the 50m freestyle Bahrin, Mu Hin and I went to the diving pool to warm up. We goofed off at the pool when Mu Hin started to get interested in synchronized swimming, Bahrin out of nowhere started to push his leg upwards with his whole body underwater and Mu Hin danced and soon followed after Bahrin leaving me the only one motionless. Soon I too got dragged into the swimming dance craze. Suddenly from a distance a crowd of synchronized dancers booed at us (I think they found that as an insult).Then came the most anticipated event of all the 4x100 IM relay (Bahrin did back stroke, I did breast stroke, Felix did butterfly and Mu Hin did freestyle). So far Mu Hin and I were the only ones who haven’t bagged any medals. Our team was so close to another medal in the bag during the IM relay. We were at the same pace the 3^rd placer but then they left us behind by 10 seconds so all in all we got 4^th out of all 8 teams.

After the medal presentation was done and over with, we hit the hotel to change and had a team dinner at some Chinese restaurant and had a mouth watering meal. Finally I could bloat myself up which I did until I could no longer walk. After an awesome dinner we went to One Borneo Mall again but that wasn’t the fun part. The fun only started when we reached the hotel, Felix’s mom (team manager) bought us a couple of French fries at the bar and a couple of carbonated drinks which Bahrin, Zul and I suspected to have a bit of alcohol due to the taste (bartender must’ve wanted us to get wasted). Then Felix, Bahrin and Zul played snooker while I and the rest of the team watched. After that the guys and some of the kids and I went to Bahrin’s room to hangout. Felix, Zul and I played a short game of cards while Wesley and Bahrin played Dota in the room, soon after Zul, Mu Hin, Bahrin and I got hungry so Felix took over the other laptop while we left for KFC. When we got there, Zul and I kind of insulted Mr.KFC and made the KFC staff giggle while Mu Hin was ordering food. After that we came across a street called “Jalan Padas” in other words Hot Street on the way to Burger King how awesome is that? When we got to Burger King (just a 5-minutes walk from KFC) we did the same thing still exchanging laughs and jokes while ordering food. It’s weird that Burger King had a microphone for the cashier since KFC didn’t have one and I’ve never seen fast food restaurants with one of those. Suddenly a lady went into Burger King then I noticed Zul and Bahrin giggling behind me so I asked them what was going on then I realized the lady that came in was the black version of Mariah Carey, I couldn’t help but let out a laugh. On the way back to the hotel we ran into a police car passing by, I was kind of out of control because I was high on adrenaline that I showed my middle finger to the police and stupidly hid behind the Burger King Paper bag. Fortunately, I they didn’t see it. When we arrived at Bahrin’s room we stayed up until 2 or 3 am in the morning. I don’t remember what happened until 3 am the memory is so vague since I was high.

That’s pretty much what I did during my stay in KK. I miss it already hope that we guys could hang out again. Hopefully at this upcoming Miri swim meet we could goof around again if we have time. Enjoy this post XP!!

AFTER EFFECTS AND SOME PRANKS I PULLED OFF DURING MY TIME IN HIGH SCHOOL

AFTER EFFECTS
As you all know I'm a friendly and a little crazy at times.A guy who just wants to have his own dosage of fun.Who could only be remembered by his piers as one of the three boys at the back of the class who liked to take naps every Malay period.Its hard to bond with these people i have to admit, seeing them having fun with other people who are almost the same as me.These strangers never really realized it but those are the same type of people as me only that they hide their true identity behind a mask.Why can't everyone just accept others for who they are and stop changing them into some zombie or alien.

It's sad how people can be like this.They never really treasured their real friends who treated them as the way they are.They rather abandon them and go for the 'COOL GROUP' than stay with his real friends and succumb to peer pressure.I know not all people are like this some people can accept the person as who he/she is whenever they're unmasked.

For me until now they remain as strangers to me (some of the form 5s) only some of them have been unmasked and are not afraid to show their good qualities.The only people that will remember me are my close friends from form 4s and form 3s whose names are too many to mention.I have realized that only those people who abandon you are the one's who were never your friends but those who have stayed with you throughout the years are your true friends.

I think the only way I'll be remembered by my fellow form 5s is by the pranks i pulled with some of our friends.Like the time i brought masks to school during our class photo sessions, where Paul wore the rubber made gorilla mask and scared the hell out of teacher Lai (little did we know her family had a history of heart attacks).I could still remember her face when she opened that door and when Paul jumped into the scene, her face turned so pale as if she saw a ghost and at the same time accompanied by a shriek.Everyone laughed, then we all became silent when teacher told us how a horrible trick that was.Even though she did get scared but I'm glad she could still put a smile on her face.

I could remember last year (one of the most amazing years history) during exam week during the break period, when the toothpaste caught my eyes (it was awkward to see a toothpaste in school) my mind was flooded with the most notorious deeds.I came into conclusion of spreading the tooth paste all over some of my classmates seats.As everyone entered the class as break time was already over,i couldn't help myself but to let out an evil grin as my victims sat on their seats (don't worry I've grown out of it).At the end of the exam as soon as the teacher left the room, my victims rose slowly from their seats not knowing that there were white stains on their trousers not until one of my classmates started to notice the situation and told them bout the stains.I could see their faces turning red as an apple out of embarrassment and at the same time their eyes burning with anger.Their eyes flicked from one end of the classroom to the other end hoping to spot a suspect and then when their eyes met mine , i remained calm and tried to be as innocent as possible.I was lucky the blame went on someone else but they found out i did it only this year and of course i apologized and we all just laughed about it.

I also could remember form 3 clearly in my mind (the best year, loads of pranks were pulled) where my friends and i pulled a prank on teacher (best prank ever pulled).That day like all the other days my friends and i would compete for the most mosquitoes killed since there was always a lot of mosquitoes in class.Soon it was time for teacher Rezal's , by then we already had a mountain of mosquitoes in our desks so we decided to combine all of our kills and put it on teacher Rezal's seat when he leaves the classroom to do some other business.My eyes glimmered with excitement as we were right that he was soon gonna leave the class for awhile.As soon as he left we all ran towards his seat and unloaded our kills onto his seat and laid it flat so it wouldn't be noticeable .Suddenly as we saw teacher around the corridor through the tinted double glazed glass we scrambled back to our seats hoping not to get caught (this teacher was pure evil ,he would get you into trouble if he can).As he entered the classroom approaching his seat not noticing the situation, we all grinned at him.We were all cheering inside our heads for him to score a touchdown , it was as if we were watching a football match.As his butt arrive on the surface of the plastic green chair ,i let out a silent laugh and my friends did the same.Still teacher sat there stupidly not knowing the situation,then he stood up and continued writing notes for us to copy then everyone noticed the mosquitoes glued to his butt and we all laughed and i think if I'm not mistaken he told us to shut up.Most memorable days ever.

MOVING ON and CHEPI'S CONCERT and HANGOUT AtT CHEPI'S HOUSE

Sigh.. i never thought this day would come but it has.i have finally lost my feelings that have been my burden for 5 months, i feel lighter and more capable of doing more stuff.I want to thank my friends and best friends specially Ronalyn and Chelsea.These two amazing people are the mixture for fun , without the other 'Fun' wouldn't be there.So thanks guys i owe it to ya.ONE OF THE BEST PEOPLE IN THE WORLD XD.

Last Saturday was awesome eventhough James kept shaking my seat like hell and all Rona could do was giggle bout it but still it was an amazing night, chepi played like a rockstar.I enjoyed the company of Rona, if she wasnt there i'd be alone the whole time.I like the way Chepi strummed the guitar, it was so professional.She made a good comeback for 'Zombie', just incase you were wondering she was playing lead.All the songs Chepi played were good and she did well[Congrats!! again chepi].I also liked the way the lead guitarist played 'Sweet Child Of Mine' and the way thie other girl sang 'Zombie' and 'Sweet Child Of Mine'.Me and Rona agreed the guy wearing the red cap and with a scarf around him sang pretty badly but overall the concert was good.At the end of the show we all went vain with Chepi and also got high well cause Chepi did such a good job.Then i got hugged to death by Aneesah guess my best friend misses me alot [I hope you becoma a rockstar Chels].

After the craziness at the JP amphitheatre, we hanged out at chepi's house, i was the only one though who had to go home cause Rona was sleeping over .While waiting for my ride i got murdered by Chepi's siblings while Rona took a picture of me dying [im so gona haunt you Rona!! reminds me of shutter!!].Then in Chepi's room i tried to take a picture of Rona but she covered her face with the stuffed animal's butt [Rona thats animal abuse btw joke!].One thing i didn't know all this time we three had the same favourite song 'Thunder'.I only realised it when i started playing the guitar it's sad though i only played half the song[ I know I'm a spoiler].Oyah i almost forgot, rona was carrying Chepi's sibling on her back for fun then i jumped on her too and Chepi couldn't help but laugh [Chepi i hope you didn't choke and Rona hope your back is fine]

ALL ABOUT HER

The most special person to me would probably be 'HER' in other words chen.I'm captivated by her complexity.She's different from any other girl I've encountered my whole life.You see she's not the type that would let a guy take advantage of her no matter how attracted he is to her or how attracted she is to him.I really enjoyed my days with her even though we would just stand there and talk or sit there by her side keeping her company, this is enough to make my heart contented.Whenever i see her or get a chance to talk to her or even chat with her my heart leaps for joy, pounding my body as if it wanted to escape and cuddle her,no other person makes me feel this way only she did, until now this keeps happening to me, it really shows how much i love her.No matter how big my problems would get it just vanishes as i drown in her love.She was the bestest friend i have ever had, the closest person that i could easily tell my problems to.During the darkest moments in life when all hope is gone she strengthens me and shows me the way towards the light and how to look at the positive side of life. I'm sad though that we didn't last that long even though we didn't have any problems.I've lost the most amazing person in my life.if there was a way I could get her back I would take that path no matter how hard it would be for me.Nowadays, sometimes she could be really mean but no matter how mean she she is i believe that there's a good side of her but it's way deep inside(it took me a long time to understand that).Now i still try to be the best of her friends, trying my best to be there for her when she's sad, hoping that i could repay her for how she made me feel.I HEART CHEN

one whole month of never ending exams

I never thought it would ever end.Finally after a month of hard work counting the days off until the end of the most stressing exam in the history of high school, i can finally breathe after struggling day by day to finish reading those enormous books filled with so much words with so many meanings.Despite the fact that i was actually encountering a problem during the exam I'm glad that i was able to control my emotions for this certain someone.Usually i would be blinded from whatever i tried to study whenever her presence was in my mind.This obsession in turn was an inspiration to me which actually helps like during my mock exams for example.lets just hope i do even better this time.On the first day of exam it felt as if it was a thousand miles away from ever ending but when the last day came it felt as if the first day of exam was just yesterday.Isn't it weird how it takes time to finish something but when it's finished you feel as if it was just awhile ago that you started that something.I know this would probably be crazy but it's true.Currently it's been 3 days since i was sitting on that hard rock chair in the hall waiting for the clock to strike 11 am to mark the end of the exam and the start of the holidays.So far I've spent my holidays jamming with the band and strolling around mall, I hope I could find more ways to use it.Got to sign off now guys thanks for reading XD